Caps VS Panthers


Last night, my husband & I watched the hockey game. Per usual, we watched the warm ups & opening.

Last night was intense to say the least. They began with a song & dedication to the fallen students & teachers of Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School.

Watching the photos of the fallen scroll by with their names, their ages & a very short description of them was heartbreaking. Watching the grown men of the Florida hockey team & the Florida fans in the crowd (the game was in Florida) cry had me in tears.

They had spot lights on the ice & in each circle was the name of a fallen person.

It was a tragically beautiful ceremony, not to mention the little boy who sang, “God Bless America,” since they haven’t been televising the National Anthem.

It was an incredibly emotional opening ceremony. But because of openings like these & the many, many other things the NHL does to support it’s community, I will be a hockey fan for as long as they are so amazing.

God Bless America y’all! 🇺🇸

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Christmas Eve Tradition


When Doug & I moved into our house we love in now on 2014, I was DETERMINED to start SOME kind of tradition that was new & just ours.

We don’t really do the New Year thing & Christmas Day is always full so, why not do something on Christmas Eve?

I decided to get a big jar & throughout the year we’d fill it with it with things from events, places we went to, things that happened, etc..

So every Christmas Eve, we go through the jar & we remember the year & all of the madness that took place!

This year’s jar madness is about to commence! I’m ready for 2017 to peace out!✌


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All Year Round


October is ALWAYS hard, but to be honest…my heart is broken all year round.

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Massachusetts-Day Four


Oh my wow! We went full on.
We got up super early, got breakfast, headed back to the room to get myself straight after eating & then made or way to Salem.

First challenge, parking. Ai, yi, yi! After finding a place, we headed to the mall area for some much needed H2O. Then it was off to the Witch Trials Museum. Pretty interesting! After that, we headed to the Witch Dungeon Museum. This place was so incredibly educational & scared the junk out of me! I’m super afraid of mannequins. We learned how the accused witches were treated, what they experienced, the sizes of the cells in the dungeon, what happened to the prisoners that were finally freed…wow, wow, wow. I think the Dungeon Museum was both hubs & my favorite museum we visited.

The last place we went to was, The Witch House. This museum was also pretty interesting. I leaned a LOT by the ways of medicinal practices & let me just say, thank you Lord for making me wait to experience life until 1986! WOW-ZAS!

The fact that it was chilly & rainy made for a difficult day & we didn’t get to walk around & experience too much of Salem itself. Definite bummer. I’m a closeted architecture lover & I was living the buildings! Being in an old historic town like Salem made me think of Fredericksburg (where I grew up) in a good way. I LOVE older buildings.

We grabbed pizza on the way back to the hotel & chilled out. We woke up early & peaced of MA quick! No offense, but I’m thinking Massachusetts was a one & done.

I enjoyed the visit. It was educational & fun  but man-oh-man body is displeased right now & I NEVER thought I’d miss Virginia like I did!

We bounced out bright & early Friday morning to head home. I’m so happy to see my babies & to use my own toilet! Home sweet home baby!

P.S. I weighed myself before we left & worked myself when I got home & I lost ONE pound!


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Massachusetts-Day One


Monday May 22, 2017
Day One

After a LONG drive (over ten hours), we’re in Massachusetts (from Virginia)!

My husband, Doug, is amazing! He drove the whole way. But on top of all that, coming up north is not something he ever really wanted to do. However, he knows it’s sobering I’ve been longing to do since we first met.

This is over first getaway ALONE since we’re been married (going on EIGHT years)! How crazy is that?

A few things we for sure have planned ate going to be amaging! We’re going to hit up the Salem Witch Trials stuff, ferry on up to Maine for some lobster, art museums & more!

I’m praying to get through this week workout any major medical chaos.


I want to see the world.
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New Patient


I’m a nerd & love busywork. I like paperwork. I know, “cray-cray.” But when it comes time to fill out health related paperwork, WHOMP, WHOMP! It gets stressful, I won’t lie. I have to list all of my ailments & medications…really? Hospital stays? Surgeries & dates?

I’m happy I remembered to put on underwear & that my socks match.

Oy vey…


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Who I’m Becoming


My life…wow.

When I think back at how my life was when I was eighteen & I compare it to what it is today…WORLDS APART.

Eighteen years old. In a lot of ways, I had independence, but I didn’t. I was working full time plus overtime, I was in school (college) full time, & I was in a relationship. I had independence in the sense that I was working & making really great money. I was officially in college & making strides in my educational career. I was in my first REAL relationship. Everything was exactly as I wanted it untill…

…the realization that I was in a domestically violent relationship finally hit me.

I’m right at turning twenty years old & after the worst fight to date, things finally clicked in my brain. Being called every degrading name known to man, being made to feel smaller than the tiniest ant ever, & most of all, after being body slammed to the floor (again), it all hit me. What am I doing? All of this was happening because of jealousy. All of this was happening over the smallest, insignificant things & I did NOT deserve any of it. Was I one hundred percent innocent in all of this, no. But when you’re with someone who is four years older, twice your size & has the maturity of a child, something isn’t right. He should’ve only been loving me, helping me learn & grow, shedding wisdom, respecting me, & happy to be with me! I was happy to be with him. I loved him more than anything. He was my first REAL love. But I had to get out & the downside of your first real love…is experiencing your first real broken heart.

Making the decision to walk away was hands-down one of the hardest, yet bravest things I’ve ever had to do.

I moved. It was the only way I knew how to end the cycle of UNHEALTHY chaos. I had to put distance between us or I’d be stuck on the merry-go-round from hell for who knows how long. I had to find a new job. I had to transfer all of my school stuff. But worst of all, I had to find myself & then put myself back together again, because when I looked in the mirror, I had NO IDEA who was looking back at me.

I’m thirty-one now. I’m still broken & scarred. I’m still haunted by the demons & ghosts of being with him. I’m still trying to find the Kerry I was before him & trying to mesh her with the Kerry I am now.

So much has changed since I was twenty. I spent the entire decade of my twenties chronically ill. I’m still chronically ill & things are getting worse. I can’t work anymore due to being sick. I don’t have the independence I once had. I despise the body that I have now…it’s constantly battling itself. I have autoimmune diseases. I have mental diseases. I have additional chronic ailments & trust me when I say, it is a FULL TIME JOB just being me. I have no relationship with anyone in my immediate family.

But I also have the most amazing husband anyone could ask for. He has been by my side literally ONE HUNDRED percent & since day one of being sick. He loves me for me, broken & scarred. He takes care of me & I take care of him. I’m in a HEALTHY marriage that is almost nine years strong. I have an amazing set of in-laws (siblings & all!). I have a roof over my head, fur children who love me unconditionally, & so many accomplishments I can call my own. Completely mine.

Things are hard for me on a daily basis, but would I trade my past experiences & my ailments I battle today to save myself from the ugliness that comes with it all? No way. Absolutely not. I am who I am today BECAUSE of everything in my past & all that I deal with today & everyday & to be completely honest, I like who I am today. I’m still learning to love the parts of me that aren’t as I’d like them to be & everyday I’m getting stronger & better at it.

I’m blessed. ♡ Point blank.

This is just a tiny view of my life. Teeny, tiny.

“Anger, resentment and jealousy doesn’t change the heart of others– it only changes yours.” – Shannon L. Alder, 300 Questions to Ask Your Parents Before It’s Too Late

“The only time you fail is when you fall down and stay down.” – Stephen Richards, Cosmic Ordering: You can be successful like

“You are essentially who you create yourself to be and all that occurs in your life is the result of your own making.” – Stephen Richards, Think Your way to Success: Let Your Dreams Run Free

“What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” – Sheryl Sandberg, Lean In: Women, Work, and the Will to Lead

“Learn to deal with the fact that you are not a perfect person but you are a person that deserves respect and honesty.” – Pandora Poikilos, Excuse Me, My Brains Have Stepped Out


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