For What Binds Us

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For What Binds Us
Jane Hirshfield, 1953

 

There are names for what binds us:
strong forces, weak forces.
Look around, you can see them:
the skin that forms in a half-empty cup,
nails rusting into the places they join,
joints dovetailed on their own weight.
The way things stay so solidly
wherever they’ve been set down—
and gravity, scientists say, is weak.

And see how the flesh grows back
across a wound, with a great vehemence,
more strong
than the simple, untested surface before.
There’s a name for it on horses,
when it comes back darker and raised: proud flesh,

as all flesh
is proud of its wounds, wears them
as honors given out after battle,
small triumphs pinned to the chest-

And when two people have loved each other
see how it is like a
scar between their bodies,
stronger, darker, and proud;
how the black cord makes of them a single fabric that nothing can tear or mend.

 

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STOP – You Don’t Know

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You don’t look sick.

You don’t seem anxious.

You don’t act depressed.

What are these weird diseases you are talking about? Are they real?

Yoga and cannabis oil will fix everything.

Do you really spend that much time on the toilet? That seems extensive.

Why do you share so much? Do you want attention?

Do you really think you’re helping anyone with your “journey?”

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WHOA. WHOA. WHOA. BACK THE BEEP UP. YOU DON’T ME.

Turn my body inside out, I’m sicker than you could probably ever imagine. I don’t seem anxious or act depressed? Well, there IS a computer screen between us. A face-to-face meeting would change your mind in a heartbeat. YES, these diseases are real and I indeed have them. Don’t read my entire blog for the information I’ve shared about them? Look them up. It ain’t purdy.

I will NOT use cannabis anything. It’s a personal choice. I’m not judging others for using the oils, so don’t judge me for not. It’s not something I’m interested in.

Yes, I’m on the toilet A LOT! Thanks for asking 🙂

I share because YES, people have reached out to me saying that sharing my story and my “journey” has helped them. It’s got nothing to do with attention. I’m a real woman. If I want attention, I will ask.

Step back, think first and then speak – if you must.

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This Week & My Reality

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This week is going to be insanely busy for me. My anxiety is already through troposphere just thinking about it.

Three appointments. One that is absurdly out of the way (thank the good Lord above that my husband & mother-in-law will be with me), one that is right up the road, but about a VERY SERIOUS health issue & one that is somewhere I’ve never been before (again, thank the good Lord that my husband will be able to take me).

Out of everything going on right now (preparing for my disability hearing, having tests done in preparation for a hysterectomy & Barotholin gland removal, booking an appointment with a psycho doctor, etc) the thing hanging over my head is knowing that I WILL, at some point, need a liver transplant.

I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s some scary business & I’m not talking just for me. Everything I go through, my husband goes through in his own way. I don’t like it. I can’t take whatever ous thrown my way, I’ve been proving that over & over. It’s so unfair to him though. Yeah, it’s unfair to me as well, but he is the one I worry about.

My reality? I’m not going to get better…this is my life, one battle after another – forever.

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Baked Lemon Butter Salmon & Pasta

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I made this for the first time tonight & it was delicious! Here are the secrets! 😉

Need:
1 lb salmon (skinless & boneless – one or two pieces)
2 garlic cloves, finely sliced
4 tablespoons unsalted butter
1 tablespoon olive oil
3 tablespoons lemon juice
Salt & pepper
1/2 lb fettuccine or other pasta of choice (cooked per packet directions)
1/4 cup finely parsley

Do:
Preheat oven to 390F. Place salmon in a small baking dish. Sprinkle both sides with salt & pepper. Top with butter & garlic, drizzle over lemon & olive oil. Bake for 15 minutes or until salmon is just cooked through. Cool for a few minutes, then flake into large chunks – it will break up more when tossing. Add pasta & herbs into the pan. Toss gently to coat pasta with pan juices. Add more lemon & season with more salt & pepper if desired. Serve immediately. ENJOY!

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Need a Boost?

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8 Foods That Boosts Your Metabolism

Numbers of people have problems with being overweight. Losing the extra pounds can be extremely difficult and it may take time.

Here is a list of recommended foods which will boost your metabolism and improve your digestion.

1. Broccoli

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Broccoli packs nutritional power in just a few calories per bite. It is also high in water and fiber. Consuming broccoli regularly will energize your body and stimulate the metabolism. If you want to lose your extra pounds this veggie will help you achieve your goal.
2. Hot Peppers

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Hot peppers contain a compound known as capsaicin which is a thermogenic chemical. It helps us decrease the appétit and speed up metabolism. You can consume cayenne pepper cooked, or you can add it to your water, smoothie, or protein shake.
3. Whole grains: Oatmeal and Brown Rice

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Your diet will be perfect if you increase the intake of oatmeal and brown rice. For several weeks of regular consummation, you will lose many pounds. Whole grains have nutrients and complex carbohydrates which accelerate your metabolism by stabilizing insulin levels.

4. Coffee and Green Tea

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Drinking coffee and green tea on a daily basis will significantly improve your health and stimulate the weight loss processes. Green tea provides many benefits to the body, including antioxidant effects, metabolic boosts, and a slight increase in weight loss.
5. Apples and Pears

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We all know that eating fruits provides many benefits for our body. Apples and pears are one of the foods which help people lose their weight. It was confirmed that if you eat them daily, they will help you feel full and burn your calories faster.

6. Spices

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Spices like cinnamon, turmeric, and black pepper are excellent for losing weight.
Consuming cinnamon will balance your blood sugar levels and reduce your cravings. You can add it to your oatmeal, yogurt, tea or coffee. It will energize your body and boost your mood.
The active compound in turmeric is curcumin which has the power to help you burn fat. It is confirmed that this spice increases the body heat and stimulates our metabolism. Add it to your soups or sprinkle it over roasted veggies and nuts.
Black pepper contains a compound known as piperine, which blocks the formation of new fat cells. It also helps us burn calories and lose our extra weight. We should only consume it on a daily basis, and after several weeks we will see the results.

7. Citrus Fruits

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It is recommended eating more citrus fruits like oranges, grapefruits, and lemons. They are rich in vitamin C, they boost our immunity, regulate the insulin levels and stimulate the metabolism.

8. Omega-3 acids

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You should add more fish, nuts, flax and hemp seed oil in your diet. They are rich in omega-3 acids which reduce the production of a hormone known as leptin that slows down the metabolism. Omega-3 fatty acids help us maintain our health and boost the digestion and the metabolism.

Source: http://www.gofit-stayfit.com

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Skinny Chicken Fajita Salad

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I found this amazing recipe & even though it isn’t something I can’t personally eat (because of tummy issues versus ingredients), it wad too amazing NOT to share! Oug anyone tries it, let me know!

Skinny Chicken Fajita Salad

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Author: Rachel Farnsworth
Yield: Serves 2

Need:
1 tablespoon olive oil
1 boneless skinless chicken breast
1 red bell pepper, sliced
1 green bell pepper, sliced
1 small onion, sliced
½ teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon chili powder
1 teaspoon ground cumin
1 teaspoon garlic powder
1 head romaine lettuce, chopped
1 avocado, sliced

Dressing:
1 tablespoon olive oil
3 tablespoons lime juice
2 teaspoons soy sauce
1 to 2 teaspoons brown sugar
1 teaspoon red pepper flakes

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Do:
Pour 1 tablespoon of olive oil into a large skillet. Heat over medium-high heat. Add in the chicken breast on one side & the bell peppers & onion on the other side. Sprinkle the whole skillet with salt, chili powder, cumin, & garlic powder. Toss the peppers & onions occasionally & let saute 3-5 minutes. Flip chicken & continue cooking another 3-5 minutes (tossing peppers occasionally) until the chicken is cooked through. Remove the pan from the heat & slice the chicken. In a small bowl, whisk together remaining olive oil, lime juice, soy sauce, brown sugar, & red pepper flakes. Compile two individual salads, or one big salad by adding chopped romaine lettuce to a bowl or plates. Add chicken, peppers & onions, & avocado slices. Drizzle dressing on top.

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No Pity Party Please

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Everyone else seems to have these amazing plans & things to look forward to. But here I am, meeting with my disability lawyer, juggling appointments & feeling atrocious. I literally cannot think of one thing I’m genuinely looking forward to.

I am so incredibly happy for everyone & I wish them NOTHING but amazingness! I just wish I could get a little bit of that amazing sprinkled on me.

Things are just steadily getting worse for me & it’s so much to take on. I’m overall worn out. I really don’t to start throwing myself pity parties though.

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