This Week & My Reality

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This week is going to be insanely busy for me. My anxiety is already through troposphere just thinking about it.

Three appointments. One that is absurdly out of the way (thank the good Lord above that my husband & mother-in-law will be with me), one that is right up the road, but about a VERY SERIOUS health issue & one that is somewhere I’ve never been before (again, thank the good Lord that my husband will be able to take me).

Out of everything going on right now (preparing for my disability hearing, having tests done in preparation for a hysterectomy & Barotholin gland removal, booking an appointment with a psycho doctor, etc) the thing hanging over my head is knowing that I WILL, at some point, need a liver transplant.

I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s some scary business & I’m not talking just for me. Everything I go through, my husband goes through in his own way. I don’t like it. I can’t take whatever ous thrown my way, I’ve been proving that over & over. It’s so unfair to him though. Yeah, it’s unfair to me as well, but he is the one I worry about.

My reality? I’m not going to get better…this is my life, one battle after another – forever.

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