Letting Go

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“Sometimes the strongest thing you will ever do, will be to let go of someone. It will be painful, you will suffer guilt, & you will second-guess yourself, but for your own sanity & quality of life, there will come a time where you hand them to God, with your love, & trust Him to be who & what He is. May our Lord comfort you.” – Lee Goff

I’m sure this is something we ALL can relate to.

It took me a very long time to let go of things & people that meant so much to me. But I realized that if I want to sail, I can’t be kept down by those anchors.

Once I learned to break the chains, I was able to to let the wind take me where it wanted to.

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Massachusetts-Day Four

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Oh my wow! We went full on.
We got up super early, got breakfast, headed back to the room to get myself straight after eating & then made or way to Salem.

First challenge, parking. Ai, yi, yi! After finding a place, we headed to the mall area for some much needed H2O. Then it was off to the Witch Trials Museum. Pretty interesting! After that, we headed to the Witch Dungeon Museum. This place was so incredibly educational & scared the junk out of me! I’m super afraid of mannequins. We learned how the accused witches were treated, what they experienced, the sizes of the cells in the dungeon, what happened to the prisoners that were finally freed…wow, wow, wow. I think the Dungeon Museum was both hubs & my favorite museum we visited.

The last place we went to was, The Witch House. This museum was also pretty interesting. I leaned a LOT by the ways of medicinal practices & let me just say, thank you Lord for making me wait to experience life until 1986! WOW-ZAS!

The fact that it was chilly & rainy made for a difficult day & we didn’t get to walk around & experience too much of Salem itself. Definite bummer. I’m a closeted architecture lover & I was living the buildings! Being in an old historic town like Salem made me think of Fredericksburg (where I grew up) in a good way. I LOVE older buildings.

We grabbed pizza on the way back to the hotel & chilled out. We woke up early & peaced of MA quick! No offense, but I’m thinking Massachusetts was a one & done.

I enjoyed the visit. It was educational & funĀ  but man-oh-man body is displeased right now & I NEVER thought I’d miss Virginia like I did!

We bounced out bright & early Friday morning to head home. I’m so happy to see my babies & to use my own toilet! Home sweet home baby!

P.S. I weighed myself before we left & worked myself when I got home & I lost ONE pound!

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Massachusetts-Day Three

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Whomp, whomp, whomp

Not good.

We got up a little later this morning since we were out late enjoying the awesomeness of baseball!

We headed out to a little diner called, “Blue Moon.” It was alright… nothing like yesterday though. Because of my GI issues, I wanted to keep things simple this morning with a bagel.

I ended up back in my bed. It was loads of FUN running to the potty & then back to bed…not.

We spent the day just hanging out basically. Not what I had in mind!

I was able to go to dinner at “Oye’s.” It was a Japanese/Chinese/Asian combo type place. The food was top notch! The service was not.

We came back to recharge & I’m hoping tomorrow is way better!

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Massachusetts-Day Two

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What a day!

It didn’t start off well. Breakfast was AMAZING (North Avenue Diner) but it wasn’t very nice to my stomach. I was TERRIFIED it would ruin the day, but we came back to the hotel, hung out a little, let my stomach do it’s thing & I napped for about an hour since I didn’t sleep last night.

Thank you Lord! I woke up feeling better & hubs decided we were going to a baseball game! Those who know me well know that I LOVE baseball! I’m not into the players & stats, but I love THE GAME.

Naturally, we cheered for Boston since that is where we are, but I’m a Braves girl…even when they suck!

When I’m at a baseball game, I’m on a whole different level of happy!

I’m so grateful that God fixed me up & I was not only about to enjoy the game, but I was PUMPED! Boston won šŸ˜‰

I’m exhausted & hubs is passed out, but I’m still on cloud nine from the absolutely wonderful evening we had!

Thank you Lord. I’m so grateful.

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Massachusetts-Day One

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Monday May 22, 2017
Day One

After a LONG drive (over ten hours), we’re in Massachusetts (from Virginia)!

My husband, Doug, is amazing! He drove the whole way. But on top of all that, coming up north is not something he ever really wanted to do. However, he knows it’s sobering I’ve been longing to do since we first met.

This is over first getaway ALONE since we’re been married (going on EIGHT years)! How crazy is that?

A few things we for sure have planned ate going to be amaging! We’re going to hit up the Salem Witch Trials stuff, ferry on up to Maine for some lobster, art museums & more!

I’m praying to get through this week workout any major medical chaos.

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I want to see the world.
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Leave a Trail

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Be you. Be the beautiful individual you were created & meant to be. Follow no path but instead, make your own.

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Mother Blogger

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“You’re very open about your feelings towards your mother. Do you think she reads your blog? Do you every worry about what she might say or feel? I only ask because I have similar issues.”

These are some awesome, straight forward questions & I thank you for that!

I always keep things anonymous & I LOVE that this is known, allowing readers to be fully upfront & honest.

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Yes, I’m very open about my feelings regarding my mother but please don’t be fooled. It’s taken me a long time to get here. I don’t hate my mother. I don’t wish ill upon her & I have zero intentions of hurting her feelings. I’m just sharing MY feelings & MY story.

I’m not sure if she reads my blog, but if I had to guess, I’d say she has. She knows I have one & throughout my entire life, she has ALWAYS been a snoop. She went through my room, she read my journals, she listened to phone calls, followed me (even by car), so…I would honestly be surprised if she HASN’T read my blog by now.

Do I worry about what she might say? No way. I haven’t actually spoken with the woman since January & I haven’t seen her in well over a year. She lives forty-five minutes away but can’t come see me? She knows I’m sick & when she comes to Richmond for her doctor’s appointments or to see my sister and her kids, SHE PASSES MY HOUSE. I couldn’t care less about what she has to say anymore.

Do I care about how she feels? Well, she has no feelings regarding me. I can’t care aboutĀ  something that doesn’t exist.

I’M NOT TRYING TO BE CRUEL…just point blank honest.

I’m so sorry to those who experience similar issues with their “mothers.” It’s not okay, it’s not fair, & it’s hurtful.

I strive to be everything she wasn’t & still isn’t. I want to be the opposite of her. Even though I will never carry a child, I want to be an aunt who loves & adores her nieces & nephews. I want to be a woman with dignity, integrity & grace. I want to be loving & kind. Everything my “mother,” is not…

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