Twenty Randoms

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February 20, 2017

Twenty Randoms

1. I haven’t always had a relationship with God. But now, He & I are BFF.
2. There is no such thing as too much lemon.
3. I have NEVER worn contacts OR fake eyelashes!
4. I’m severely challenged regarding directions. I always figure north is relative to which way I’m facing…๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™ˆ
5. I don’t like comic books, but I like the movies based off of them.
6. I still find making houses out of big cardboard boxes fun.
7. I can always find a reference to “Harry Potter,” &/or “Jersey Shore.”
8. I have enough socks for a small country.
9. I’ve never had the chicken pox.
10. “Chrisley Knows Best,” ALWAYS cracks me up!
11. I used to be addicted to salt & fruit snacks. Kicked the habits though.
12. I think golf has got to be THE MOST BORING “sport,” ever. EVER.
13. <— My favorite number! I don’t believe in superstitions.
14. Onion rings are the perfect canvas for ketchup.
15. I always need craft materials. I can’t get enough.
16. The fact that I am not “allowed” the even TRY to have children hurts like WHOA even though I try to laugh it off. I’ve never really WANTED children, but not having the option hurts. I should be able to choose.
17. I miss eating spicy hot stuff SO BADLY.
18. I have dozens of tubes of Chapstick.
19. I love candles.
20. Silver linings of procedures…anesthesia. I LOVE being knocked out, honestly. ๐Ÿ˜‚

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Strong & Brave

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Nothing about this “sick life” is easy. There are the primary diagnoses, the secondary, the tertiary & so on, that only seem to complicate & create additional issues as time goes by.
I’ve spent the last decade chronically ill & the future looks even more complicated.
It’s a rare thing to go to the doctor & ever hear anything positive. It’s rare to have days where I can actually enjoy myself.
Unfortunately, life has become learning to deal with things & plan AROUND my ailments. It’s hard. It’s depressing. It’s mind-boggling.
I’m human. I’m not made of stone & they’re are days where I want to crawl in a hole & disappear, but I don’t. I refuse.
I’ve been broken down in every possible way. I’ve cheated death on more than one account. There are times I’m so sick, lying on the bathroom floor with nothing but thoughts of self-harm & wishing for God to just take me away.
But then I remember that God gave me this life. This is all His plan. I do NOT understand it in the slightest, but I do know that it’s not for me to take into my own hands. So I pray, I pick myself up off the floor & I do my best to make it through the day.
God made me strong. He also made me brave. I’m a warrior.

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Hurt When I Look at You

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Hurt When I Look at You: A Poem About Mother and Daughter – K.A.E Grove

It hurts when I look at you

Your chin raised so high

So full of self-virtue

You donโ€™t hear my cry

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Your eyes full of judgement

As you survey around

Your lips spill your disappointment

As my confidence you pound

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Your words so critical

Delivered with a smile

Your opinion of me brutal

Your own child you revile

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For years I have tried

To earn more than your love

Needing your friendship, respect and pride

And receiving none of the above

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Locked together by blood

Our family ties tight

What should be ours sacred

Has been killed by the never-ending fight

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So please believe me when I say

That our time has reached its end

I never meant for it to be this way

But my life Iโ€™m no longer willing to defend

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I miss what we could have had

But it was only a dream

I like my life good or bad

And no longer look to gain your esteem

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It hurts when you look at me

Wanting to be close

And knowing we never will be

Not mother and daughterโ€ฆ now only foes

 

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Toxic Parents

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I’ve never had good, healthy relationships with my parents…ever.

I always say that I’m done trying & that I give up. Then, I think I see a glimmer of hope just to be reminded that my efforts are wasted.

Today was a perfect reminder.

I just shouldn’t have bothered texting my mother even though I thought it was a good, funny conversation. She quickly made it awkward & started to talk about things she knows I feel strongly about.

It’s my own fault. I just shouldn’t bother with her anymore. I’m tired of hurting.

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https://www.bustle.com/articles/109435-9-signs-you-have-a-toxic-parent

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Cilantro Lime Chicken

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Oh my goodness! This chicken was AMAZING! You should absolutely try it out & report back!

Need:

2-3 boneless, skinless, chicken breast

Extra Virgin Olive Oil (EVOO)

Sugar

Salt

Black pepper

Lime Juice

Lemon juice

Cilantro

Garlic

Onion

Paprika

Do:

Preheat oven to 400ยฐF.

Cover a cookie sheet with one layer of foil & lightly coat with some non-stick cooking spray (I use PAM).

I cut my chicken in half to make them thinner. You don’t have to, but I think it worked out well.

Regarding the ingredients, it comes to a matter of taste. If you want it super garlicky, use more garlic. Here’s a guesstimate of what I used!

1/4 cup of chopped cilantro

Juice of 2 limes & 1 lemon

2 cloves of minced garlic

A pinch of salt, pepper, garlic, onion, & paprika. A pinchlet (not a real word ๐Ÿ˜‚) of sugar.

Combine all wet ingredients together in one bowl & all dry ingredients in another bowl.

Lightly coat each piece of chicken with wet mixture (both sides). Then coat each piece of chicken with the remaining combined ingredients (both sides).

Place on foil covered cookie sheet & place in the oven. Bake for about 20 minutes.

Enjoy!

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Everyday

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Because I love him everyday! Not just on Valentine’s Day. ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’–

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Princess Kate

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Love Princess Kate’s fashion sense! I would absolutely LOVE to go through her closet!

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