How? Why?

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I’ve been asked why I’m so open with my life & the things I’ve experienced & continue to experience. I’ve been asked how I find the “bravery” to share such personal details. Where does my strength come from? How do I remain so graceful?

I decided last year to truly open up about things I’ve experienced & continue to go through because as someone who has been through so much & STILL goes through so much, finding myself in the midst of all the chaos is so important. It would be incredibly easy for me to get lost & to drown in the depression that inevitability comes with all this madness.

For a very long time, I felt I was dealing with everything alone. No one else in my family deals with the GI issues I do. No one else in my family has been through the surgeries I have. They haven’t been through the treatments, the medications, the insane anxiety, the limitations everything brings…

I have started sharing my experiences with domestic abuse, sexual assault, lack of relationships with my blood relatives, & much, much more because I had no one to talk to. I had no one.

I’m determined to be there & help others.

How did I find the “bravery” to talk about everything? Honestly, if I said I was 100% sure, I would be a gigantic liar. All I know is that God is using me & I am beyond excited to do what I’m lead to do. I feel it’s what I should do. The messages I receive from my readers/followers fill my heart & those messages mean THE WORLD to me.

Where does my “strength” come from? God. He made me. He made me strong & He made me into a warrior. Through all of the trials & tribulations, I’ve gained experience & knowledge. I apply what I’ve learned to my life & that makes me stronger.

Grace. I don’t honestly see myself as graceful. I’m just a girl trying to make it through this crazy ride called, “Life.” I’m trying to keep my head on straight & live the best life I can. God gives us ONE chance on the planet & I’m determined to be the best version of myself I can be. I want to be a good person. I want to be the best wife I can be. I want to be someone others can count on. I want to be a good role model for my niece & my nephews. I want to be a good daughter-in-law & sister-in-law. I want to look back on my life when I’m eighty & know I’ve helped at least ONE person during my existence. If that happens, I will pass on as a vert happy woman.

I’m blessed. ♡

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