How? Why?

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I’ve been asked why I’m so open with my life & the things I’ve experienced & continue to experience. I’ve been asked how I find the “bravery” to share such personal details. Where does my strength come from? How do I remain so graceful?

I decided last year to truly open up about things I’ve experienced & continue to go through because as someone who has been through so much & STILL goes through so much, finding myself in the midst of all the chaos is so important. It would be incredibly easy for me to get lost & to drown in the depression that inevitability comes with all this madness.

For a very long time, I felt I was dealing with everything alone. No one else in my family deals with the GI issues I do. No one else in my family has been through the surgeries I have. They haven’t been through the treatments, the medications, the insane anxiety, the limitations everything brings…

I have started sharing my experiences with domestic abuse, sexual assault, lack of relationships with my blood relatives, & much, much more because I had no one to talk to. I had no one.

I’m determined to be there & help others.

How did I find the “bravery” to talk about everything? Honestly, if I said I was 100% sure, I would be a gigantic liar. All I know is that God is using me & I am beyond excited to do what I’m lead to do. I feel it’s what I should do. The messages I receive from my readers/followers fill my heart & those messages mean THE WORLD to me.

Where does my “strength” come from? God. He made me. He made me strong & He made me into a warrior. Through all of the trials & tribulations, I’ve gained experience & knowledge. I apply what I’ve learned to my life & that makes me stronger.

Grace. I don’t honestly see myself as graceful. I’m just a girl trying to make it through this crazy ride called, “Life.” I’m trying to keep my head on straight & live the best life I can. God gives us ONE chance on the planet & I’m determined to be the best version of myself I can be. I want to be a good person. I want to be the best wife I can be. I want to be someone others can count on. I want to be a good role model for my niece & my nephews. I want to be a good daughter-in-law & sister-in-law. I want to look back on my life when I’m eighty & know I’ve helped at least ONE person during my existence. If that happens, I will pass on as a vert happy woman.

I’m blessed. β™‘

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Hard Truth

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So much of what we learn about love, is taught by people who never truly loved us.

It’s a hard truth…very hard. You can give love your all, absolutely everything you have, everything you are & realize in the end that the love you were experiencing was only one-sided.

One-sided love doesn’t work.

One-sided love with a family member is the hardest. You want so badly to have an amazing relationship with them, but you’re basically on your own.

You see or hear something that makes you think of them & it’s quickly followed by, “If I reach out, I’ll just get hurt again.” News of any kind is waiting to be shared with this person, but you can’t tell them because the conversation is so unpredictable.

You want to forgive them for SO MANY things they’ve wronged you with, but no matter what you do, it’s all burned into your brain & heart.

Letting go of a relationship, especially family, is so unbelievably difficult…they’re family. You love them, but the relationship isn’t healthy. It’s corrupt & broken.

So how do you walk away completely? Well, when I figure it out, I’ll let you know…

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I’m Going to Hell

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May I please get some virtual high-fives? Not only do I feel like the south end of a donkey, but a lady at the gas station told me I’m going to hell because I’m wearing a Harry Potter shirt.
She was buying booze & lottery tickets. I didn’t even notice until she said something to me about my shirt. I couldn’t care less about what she is doing.
Not only did I hold my tongue (HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENT FOR ME), but I actually laughed & simply said, “I’ll meet you there.” The lady said I was probably right.
WHAT IN THE WORLD?! Was she drunk already? Haha! The cashier busted out laughing (a girl probably a little younger than I am, I guess). She said she would meet us there too because she loves Harry Potter!
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P.S. NOT THE FIRST PERSON TO TELL ME THIS!

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Fall & Rise

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“The harder you fall, the stronger you rise.” – Matshona Dhliwayo

I’ve fallen. I’ve fallen flat on my face. I’ve fallen so hard, I’m amazed I was able to scrape myself off the ground.

Life isn’t easy & it’s not suppose to be. We’re put here to be tested & to prove how strong our faith is.

I’m a Christian. I’m a child of God & no matter what comes at me, I KNOW I will be alright. God forgives, saves, protects…God is everything.

All of this madness is temporary. This amazing home I reside in, is temporary. My loved ones & furbabes are temporary (but we’ll meet again!). This crippled, dysfunctional body of mine is temporary. This constant state of pain & sickness I’m in is temporary.

So even when I’m face down in the dirt, I know I have a ways to go in this temporary life, so I rise up stronger. My life is a constant battle & I’m always swinging.

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Avocado Ranch Chicken Salad Wrap

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🌟Please see separate post for Buttermilk Ranch Dressing recipe!🌟

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Jennifer Lawrence

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LOVE this dress on Jennifer Lawrence! Absolutely gorgeous! Her as well. πŸ˜‰

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