Not This Year

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I’m a Christmas lover! I love the holidays. I love everything about them, but as the years go by & those I love pass away, I’d be a liar if I said there wasn’t a part of me that wished the holidays would just go on without me. A part of me wants them over in the blink of an eye. I want to hibernate like a bear & when I wake up, everything is over.

It hurts “celebrating” when a chunk of your heart is missing. I’m human…not a robot. I have feelings & right now, as they have been for months, they’re broken. I’ve been a mess. I put on the happy face for friends & for family & when I’m home alone-it’s stripped away. So, just like I did last year, I will post this song again this year. This year another loved one joined the angels & their family & friends are left to “move on.” Well…not this year…

Aly & AJ – Not This Year

This Christmas card is contrived
A mannequin looks more alive
Haven’t meant a word I’ve written here
The page is full not one thing sincere

I can’t, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t take it
This is the time to smile, I can’t fake it
Please allow me the chance now
To break it down

It’s not snow, It’s rain coming down
And the lights are cool, But they burn out
And I can’t pull off the cheer
Not this year, Not this year,Not this year

When I look into the mirror
No happiness is present here
Not supposed to whine, Not supposed to cry
Try to hold it in, but not this time

I can’t, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t take it
This is the time to smile, I can’t fake it
Please allow me the chance now
To break it down

It’s not snow, It’s rain coming down
And the lights are cool, But they burn out
And I can’t pull off the cheer
Not this year, Not this year, Not this year

Don’t know, don’t know, If you can hear me
I will, I will, Speak louder for you

No more whispering,Are you listening
I am pleading, I am pleading

I can’t, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t take it
This is the time to smile, I can’t fake it
Please allow me the chance now
To break it down

It’s not snow, It’s rain coming down
And the lights are cool, But they burn out
And I can’t pull off the cheer
Not this year, Not this year, Not this year
I can’t, I can’t

It’s not snow, It’s rain coming down
And the lights are cool, But they burn out
And I can’t pull off the cheer
Not this year, Not this year
Not this year, Not this year

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